Who am I that the Lord knows my name?

I'd like to start off by telling you a little about myself. I am a 24 year old wife, mommy, daughter, granddaughter, sister, niece, cousin, friend. I am a Christian that struggles daily with the fine line between holding myself and others accountable for our sins, while loving the ever living snot out of people. I am a teacher at a city school in a small town. --GO CARDS!

I am married to a farmer that works his tail off for his family. 

I am a mommy to the sweetest little baby growing diligently inside my belly. 

I am an animal lover, but would never consider myself a fanatic that would take to the streets to burn fur bras. I have a beautiful little home, provided mostly by my hardworking husband, with 2 cats and 2 dogs (I told you...animal lover). I am crafty. I am an encourager. I am a singer. I am sassy. I am a lover to the fullest extent of the word. I love. Big. And I hurt big. When making a list of all the things I am, I feel confident in the woman God created me to be. I am strong and I am kind, but I fail daily. In those failures, I have often felt that I am failing all of womankind. You know what I'm talking about? Like we are to all bond together over multiple things...body image, women equality, bra burning, motherhood-or lack thereof. The whole nine yards. We, as women, feel an obligation to stick to one another because no one else will. Men don't understand us...just ask one! Heck, most of the time WE don't understand us. So what is it about this bond that can make us feel so strong, so united, but soooooo awful when we fail?
I am Woman...Hear my cry!
I think there is so much pride that comes with being a woman. Oh my goodness. We can do it all can't we? We can clean an entire house in under an hour if we have company coming. We can keep up with schedules of our entire household. We can show up to work with our hair perfectly done and our makeup without blemish, even after carrying a crying baby on our hip the entire morning and nudging our husband to wake up and wipe the drool off his face. We are truly super humans. But even as I'm listing the things I am and the things women claim to be, I know you are finding things you can't do. Is that okay? I straight up just told you that women are the ones cleaning, taking care of children, and looking hot at all times. But do I do these things? Can I do these things? Am I any less of a woman if I can't, or won't, do these things?

You see, these are the things I struggle with daily. One of the things I left off of the list of things I am but I know for a fact would be one of the first things my husband would list, is that I am independent. For my entire life that has always been something I am so very proud of. Don't have a man? Who cares! Don't need him!

But when I started studying about the wife God wants me to be, I really started to struggle with my independence. Is it okay that I am the way I am? If God created me with such a strong will, is it okay that I continue in this independence even though the Bible says I am to submit to my husband?

I'm starting this blog, not as a way to answer all our questions, but more as a route to learning. A path I'm taking. A conversation for all women that struggle with forever being too much, yet never enough. How do I become the wife God wants me to be without losing myself and becoming a mere shadow of the husband I am married to?

Let's do this!
I hope you will follow along with me in this journey of understanding...and add to our knowledge as we grow! I am young and learning, so bear with me...but please add to our conversations! I am so excited about this journey into becoming the woman Christ wants me to be!